Jax Taylor revealed he almost took his life amid his scandals but his son Cruz saved him.

The reality TV personality, 45, admitted his three-year-old son is ‘the only reason I’m still here’ and ‘still standing right now.’

He went through ‘dark moments’ when he did not ‘want to be here anymore,’ he shared with People at the season 2 premiere of The Valley on Thursday.

Last year, he addressed his mental health and revealed he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and PTSD.

He also split with Brittany Cartwright, 36, after five years of marriage, and he gave his now-ex primary and legal custody of their son.

Recently, he opened up about his sobriety journey and his longstanding battle with addiction after he sought treatment at a rehabilitation facility twice.

Jax Taylor revealed he almost took his life amid his scandals but his son Cruz saved him. He confessed that he went through ‘dark moments’ when he did not ‘want to be here anymore’ last year

The reality TV personality, 45, admitted his three-year-old son is ‘the only reason I’m still here’ and ‘still standing right now’

The Vanderpump Rules alum, born Jason Cauchi, said that fans will get a glimpse into the struggles he went through in the upcoming season — which premieres on Tuesday, April 15.

‘It’s going to be bad,’ he admitted. ‘It’s going to be really, really bad.’ 

He continued: ‘I was at rock bottom, going through a divorce, losing my house, going to rehab twice, being diagnosed with bipolar, OCD, PTSD, finding out my friend was sleeping with my ex-wife, losing friends. 

‘I mean, you name it. Losing my son. It was a really, really, really tough year for me,’ he admitted.

‘The only reason I’m still standing right now is because of my son,’ he said. 

‘There were some dark moments where I was just like, “I don’t want to be here anymore.” But I could never be that selfish and do that to my kid. I just couldn’t.’ 

He continued: ‘I want my son to see [and say], “You know what? My dad went through a hard time. He was sick, but he worked his a** off for me to be here today.’

‘He makes me so happy. He’s the one, the only reason I’m still here,’ he added. ‘And I love that little boy more than anything in the world. He makes me smile. And he’s just the most delicious little boy ever.’ 

Last year, he addressed his mental health and revealed he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and PTSD. He also split with Brittany Cartwright, 36, after five years of marriage, and he gave his now-ex primary and legal custody of their son; pictured April 2024

He said he wants to make his son proud. ‘I want my son to see [and say], “You know what? My dad went through a hard time. He was sick, but he worked his a** off for me to be here today’

In August 2024, Cartwright filed for divorce from Taylor after months of estrangement and five years of marriage. In the upcoming season of The Valley, the exes navigate their new relationship; pictured December 2019

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In a seven-minute teaser of the upcoming premiere, Taylor and Cartwright were seen navigating their lives, alongside their fellow costars, nine months after they decided to call it quits. 

The same video showed Taylor recalling he learned his ex was hooking up with his friend-slash-castmate Julian Sensley and blowing up when he caught them Sєxting.

Per People, however, Taylor also noted that season two was ‘sH๏τ a year ago’ and clarified that ‘everyone’s in a different place’ and ‘everything’s different now.’ 

The Valley season 2 premieres on Bravo next Tuesday on April 15, and already aired episodes will be available to stream the following day on Peacock. 

If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-TALK (8255) in the USA, or Samaritans on 116 123 for confidential help in the UK.