Millie Mackintosh has admitted she ‘barely recognises the person she used to be’ as she shared a ‘drunken’ throwback snap in a candid Instagram post on Thursday.
The Made In Chelsea star, 35, went sober more than two years ago following the realisation that she had become an ‘angry’ drunk.
As a MIC original, Millie’s early scenes on the show often revolved around partying and drinking leading to flare-ups with fellow cast members which she has since claimed got in the way of her relationships.
Continuing to raise awareness of sobriety and how much her life has changed for the good since going alcohol free, Millie wrote: ‘Now vs. Then.
‘Looking back ten years, I barely recognise the person I used to be—drinking heavily, always hungover, and completely lost.
‘I was stuck in a cycle of self-medicating, not realising that the change I so badly needed was waiting for me on the other side of discomfort.
Millie Mackintosh has admitted she ‘barely recognises the person she used to be’ as she shared a ‘drunken’ throwback snap in a candid Instagram post on Thursday
Millie wrote: ‘Now vs. Then. ‘Looking back ten years, I barely recognise the person I used to be—drinking heavily, always hungover, and completely lost’
Millie added: ‘Choosing an alcohol-free life has been the best decision I’ve ever made. It’s the ultimate life hack—realising that I have the power to say no’
‘Choosing an alcohol-free life has been the best decision I’ve ever made. It’s the ultimate life hack—realising that I have the power to say no.
‘Not because I have to, but because I get to. Sobriety isn’t a sacrifice; it’s a privilege, a gift I’ve given to myself, and one I’ll never take for granted.
‘The journey from bad drunk to alcohol-free has been the most transformative thing I’ve ever done. And hearing from so many of you who are on this path too means so much.
‘Your messages about my book and your own experiences remind me why this conversation is so important.
‘If you’re navigating this too, know that you’re not alone—we’re in this together. How are you feeling about your own journey right now? Let’s chat. ✨’
Last month she told the Life Of Bryony podcast about ‘dropping the ball’ and forgetting about her eldest daughter’s nativity at school as she said – ‘it’s okay to f*** up’.
In a bonus episode from the chat, Millie also opened up on the time she made a mistake as a parent.
Millie, who married Made In Chelsea co-star Hugo Taylor in 2018 after splitting from Professor Green in 2016, revealed she dashed to her daughter Sienna’s nativity and managed to get there just as it was starting after completely forgetting it was taking place.
The Made In Chelsea star went sober more than two years ago following the realisation that she had become an ‘angry’ drunk
A Made In Chelsea original, Millie’s early scenes on the show often revolved around partying and drinking leading to flare-ups with fellow cast members (Millie pictured on the show in 2011)
Recalling the situation, she said: ‘I forgot my daughters nativity. Her first one at school.
‘I somehow just missed it, I had so many things in my diary and she’d been talking to me about being an angel and then it just clicked and I was like s*** it’s today.
‘I felt awful and I was just like god I’ve dropped the ball, so I legged it there and when I got there it had just started and I didn’t get a seat but I was there standing at the back.
‘It’s brutally hard but you have to be kind to yourself, and I’m telling myself this as well.
‘You have to be kind to yourself and be like its okay not to love it every day, it’s okay to f*** up. It’s okay not to be a perfect parent. None of us are.’
Elsewhere in the episode, Millie opened up about her struggles with alcohol and how it left her getting into catfights with women she had just met.
Millie said she also lived in constant fear of being caught drunk on camera in the public eye.
She said: ‘I just remember a night where you would go over to a mum’s house, there would maybe be like eight of you there, and it would be an episode of like Desperate Housewives Of Chiswick where I’d suddenly be in a catfight with some woman I had just met.
Last month she told the Life Of Bryony podcast about her struggles with alcohol and how it left her getting into catfights with women she had just met
‘And then trying to get home and can’t get the keys in the lock, waking Hugo [Taylor] up and the baby and you’re just like a complete mess.’
Millie also described the downward spiral effect that alcohol had on her relationship with husband Hugo.
The mother-of-two said: ‘For me I’d actually started to get quite angry and nasty.
‘But it wasn’t, like if I was on a night out that I’d just be in an immense rage with a stranger, it would be at the end of the night and directed at him.’
Millie said she would also be in constant fear of being caught drunk on camera after she sH๏τ to fame on Made On Chelsea in 2011.
She said: ‘The fear of being exposed was constant. I was terrified someone would catch me on camera at my worst.
‘I was living in constant fear that there was going to be pictures of me wasted, [I was] always waiting for a call from my agent to be like “Millie, what the f*** is this?”
‘You know with camera phones, it happened to me a couple of times. So then every time I was out and I was drinking in public, I was then terrified the next morning that someone had posted evidence of it somewhere.’
She described the downward spiral effect that alcohol had on her relationship with husband Hugo Taylor (pictured)
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She added: ‘For me, it feels impossible to do all these things and go to these events and parties and do it alcohol free but it feels so scary but on the other side of that fear is the most beautiful life and don’t wait to do it.
‘It’s the ultimate self-love choice to put yourself first.’
Millie decided to go and see a sober coach, who helped her and has now steered clear of booze for more than two years.
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