Khloé Kardashian has opened up about one of her most uncomfortable experiences as a reality TV star. 

The Kardashians star, 40, spoke about being forced to speak about her father’s death on an episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians in season one.

Khloé’s father, Robert Kardashian, died of esophageal cancer in September 2003, two months after receiving the diagnosis. He was 59. 

Khloé was only 19 when her dad pᴀssed away and when KUWTK launched in 2007 one of the first episodes was focused on memories of the attorney who successfully defended O.J. Simpson against charges he had killed his ex-wife Nicole Simpson and her friend Ron Goldman. 

In episode number five then then 24-year-old Khloe was still having a difficult time processing it. She became teary and walked out of the confessional. 

The entrepreneur discussed that episode on her podcast Khloé in Wonderland  with grief expert David Kessler. 

Khloé Kardashian, 40, has opened up about one of her most uncomfortable experiences as a reality TV star

In her conversation with the Grief.com founder, Khloé spoke about her anger surrounding her father’s death. 

‘For about three years, I was incredibly angry,’ the Good American founder explained.

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‘I was filming my show, Keeping Up with the Kardashians, and in season one, I remember one of my producers was making me do an interview about my dad ‘cause I wouldn’t talk about my dad,’ she said. 

‘At that time, if I spoke about him, I would just break down,’ Khloé said of her grief at the time, adding she was annoyed she was being required to visit a topic she didn’t want to talk about. 

Looking back, she described the relief at being able to let some of those feelings go. 

‘It was as if a house got lifted off of me after that conversation,’ she said. 

‘I was kicking and screaming while doing it, but as soon as I had that conversation, that was the last time that I cried when talking about my dad, in a bad way.’

Khloé said she is now ‘at peace’ with her father’s death. 

In the latest episode of her Khloé in Wonderland podcast, she spoke about being forced to speak about her father Robert Kardashian’s death in an early episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians 

Khloé was only 19 when her dad died in 2003, and still found it difficult to speak about when the show launched in 2007. She said she was forced by a producer to talk about her feelings in a confessional 

In her conversation with the Grief.com founder, Khloé spoke about her anger surrounding her father’s death and being forced to talk about her dad’s death 

‘I let go of all of this guilt and anger. Now I can talk about my dad with smiles and happiness and admiration and understanding,’ she explained, especially now that she is a parent herself.

Kessler told Khloé facing such a diagnosis was ‘brutal’ it must have been difficult for for her dad to think about having to ‘say goodbye’.

He also guessed Robert he may not have told them his diagnosis was was terminal because he couldn’t face or, or was hoping to beat the disease. ‘It’s the best he could do,’ he explained. ‘It’s how society taught him.’

Regarding the producer’s alleged actions, he said, ‘I say people need to do this in their own time, in their own way, so I wish you would have had more choice in that,’ adding, ‘somehow the camera, the audience, became a safe place for you to talk.’