It’s been over a year since Pawn Stars’ Rick Harrison suddenly lost his son Adam, admitting in a new interview that he finds himself second guessing everything since.
The 59-year-old proprietor of Gold & Silver Pawn Shop in downtown Las Vegas confirmed last January that his 39-year-old son died from a fentanyl overdose.
Harrison opened up in a wide-ranging interview on the In Depth with Graham Bessinger podcast released on Wednesday.
Bessinger revealed he brought up Adam in a conversation with his mother and Rick’s ex, Tracy Whittaker, the CEO of Rick Harrison Productions, and she said, ‘I know Rick is still hurting, but he’ll never show it.’
Rick said, ‘I think about him every day. In his 20s, he had the drug problems, I mean, I put him in rehab so many times, and every time he’d do great and then fall back.’
‘You’ll hear the same story from a million people. It got really, really bad, and apparently it wasn’t heroin, he got some fentanyl and it killed him,’ Rick said while wiping tears away.
It’s been over a year since Pawn Stars’ Rick Harrison suddenly lost his son Adam, admitting in a new interview that he finds himself second guessing everything since.
The 59-year-old proprietor of Gold & Silver Pawn Shop in downtown Las Vegas confirmed last January that his 39-year-old son died from a fentanyl overdose
‘You’ll hear the same story from a million people. It got really, really bad, and apparently it wasn’t heroin, he got some fentanyl and it killed him,’ Rick said while wiping tears away
‘When you lose a kid, you second-guess f***ing everything. It’s like, “Could I have done this? Could I have done this?”‘ he said.
He admitted, ‘It goes through your brain constantly. There’s not a day that goes by I don’t think about him. Could I have done something different? I think I did everything right.’
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‘What if I just grabbed him f***ing locked him in the back of my truck and drove him to Oregon and put him in the river where he couldn’t get anything?’ he wondered.
Rick said that and ‘a hundred’ of other scenarios would play out in his mind after losing Adam, adding, ‘There’s nothing worse than losing a kid.’
The father also admitted that Adam broke into his own home, and he called the cops and had him arrested, hoping that would help get him clean.
‘I thought maybe if we put him in jail for two months it will clean him out, but he just went straight back on it,’ Rick admitted.
Bessinger said there may be a parent watching this who is in the same situation Rick was, asking what they would do when they have exhausted all possibilities and they still won’t stop.
Rick said, ‘I mean, you try to give them tough love, but, God, you just never see the OD coming. I never thought that would happen. It’s hard. There’s no damn instruction book with kids, and they’re all different models.’
‘When you lose a kid, you second-guess f***ing everything. It’s like, “Could I have done this? Could I have done this?”‘ he said
He admitted, ‘It goes through your brain constantly. There’s not a day that goes by I don’t think about him. Could I have done something different? I think I did everything right’
Rick said, ‘I mean, you try to give them tough love, but, God, you just never see the OD coming. I never thought that would happen. It’s hard. There’s no damn instruction book with kids, and they’re all different models.’
When asked how he gets through the mourning process, Rick said, ‘I think about the good times, think about my other kids, my grandbabies.’
When asked what his son’s death taught him, Rick said, ‘Appreciate what you’ve got, because you’re not always going to have it.’
‘I spend as much time with my kids as I can. Enjoy life. I literally know guys who have 10 times as much money as me, and I do all right, that are f***ing miserable,’ he said.
‘It is easy to enjoy life, it really is. Just don’t be around the people who are miserable and enjoy life with your family and your friends. It’s not hard to be happy,’ Rick said.
